Thursday, August 18, 2011

"The Help"er

“Read the book, don’t wait for the movie”. Presently both can be experienced with “The Help”. The book and the movie are popular, especially in our “neck of the woods”. The book was set in the Greater Jackson area and the movie was filmed in the Mississippi delta community of Greenwood.

Set in the mid-twentieth century, “The Help” is a story of the racial and societal tensions and dynamics that have haunted the American landscape, particularly the deep south, for generations.

“The Help” is a story of what might be identified as a generation of secondary slavery. It is also a story of resiliency of the human spirit. It shows that the heart will seek to rise above adversity and oppression with which it is sometimes bridled.

My parents were not of substantial fiscal resources. My mother and father were both in the work force. However, my parents found it necessary provide child care and household support throughout my early childhood. Although memories are sparse, “The Help” in my family has given me images and experiences that are vivid in my mind’s eye.

Maggie “helped” my Mom and Dad. I have not thought to ask when Maggie started “helping” my family. She was present in my earliest memories. Memories of her remain into my early elementary years. She performed household duties such as cleaning and laundry. She also provided childcare. As the youngest of four children I was its most direct recipient

My memory of Maggie is immune to the drama and dynamics of adulthood. I know that her time with my family was not without some tension and conflict. However, she is now frozen in my “childhood eyes” and has coalesced into figure that remains above reproach. She remains as a mother figure to me.

In birth order and character I have served well as “the baby”. If memory serves me correctly Maggie regularly referred to me in some derivative as “the baby”. Growing up being “the baby” was not cherished. My life is now at mid-point and I wear the moniker “the baby” as a badge of honor.

Maggie, whether knowingly or unknowingly,  served as an integral part of my defense strategy in my sometimes misguided role as a “sibling terrorist”. Younger siblings sometime employ covert and subversive actions to counteract the regime of oppression that the “cast system of birth order” brings.

I waged guerrilla warfare on my siblings. My siblings were older and bigger so I took it upon myself to address this environmental discrepancy by provoking them to adverse and counter-productive responses. I’d “drive them to the brink of their endurance”. (see “Brink Driving”)

When they would get to their “brink”, my siblings would retaliate. I would then retreat to “The Help”, fall behind the defensive line of her behind, and watch as she would defend the injustice of the “bigger-older” attack on the “younger-smaller” innocence. At the time it felt wonderful.

I am still amazed at my stubborn short-sightedness and even rank stupidity. Maggie was not always present. I could not always retreat behind the “behind”. I paid and sometimes I paid dearly. You know...it taken years for me to realize my siblings were not necessarily mean, I was however necessarily obnoxious.

I have novel memories of “The Help”. Maggie was not to be disturbed when she watched her “soaps”. She regularly needed a “BC Powder” and I was sent to fetch one from the store on the other side of our block. Yes..I would go as a young child...by myself...around the corner...out of sight... to the store to purchase Maggie a “BC Powder” and “pop”.

I recall how Maggie would iron clothes with starch. She would mix the starch in a 12oz Coke bottle. It had a top that could be inserted and the top would sprinkle the starch water on the clothes for proper ironing. I recall her need to “warm” during the cold months. She would back up to the spot heater in our living room, hike her skirt just a bit, and warm herself.

I still feel the security. I now realize her security was fragile. Truth be known, she was probably as scared of life as me. Yet, for me, I was sheltered. I had physical and emotional shelter provided by loving parents. Part of their provision for their “baby” was “The Help”.

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Birthday Ball

Happy 50th Birthday to the Wiffle Ball. Seems that when we played on the streets and yards of South Side we might have pronounced it "Wuffle Ball". Whatever the name, like most neighborhood kids, if we could swing a bat at it we would. FYI....cracked Wiffle Balls are afforded a few more miles when repaired with your father's electrical tape.

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Don't Blink


The crossing of a milestone brings a pause; a time of introspection and self-evaluation. Milestones can cause an individual to recognize they “are walking where they’ve never walked before”.

Birthdays, graduations, weddings, births and funerals are some of the milestones. Employment related experiences such as a new job or significant promotion might be included in this list. New love and relational experiences are sometimes in the census. The circumstances that bring the milestones can be numerous; the contemplative “pause” is the common thread.

When an individual comes to such a “pause”, he or she might speak about it. After all it is usually a significant life event. When spoken, it is almost inevitable the individual encounters a well-meaning “chronologically advanced” person who will claim the right to sober the moment.

These well meaning “wise guys” (in this case "guys" is not gender specific) say such things as “oh, you’re just a ‘spring chicken’” or “I’m old enough to be your parent” or “you haven’t seen anything yet”. They might add encouragement by quickly letting it be know that your experience “pales” in comparison to their own.

This thought has come full circle for me. Over recent years my wife and I have experienced a significant life event...GRADUATION. Our children have graduated high school and are now approaching completion of their college and graduate experiences. However, this is not the graduation to which I refer.

My wife and I are now graduated to the class of “empty nesters”. It is a unique class. It’s a pretty good class actually. It has caused us both to “pause” as we realize that we “walk where we’ve never walked before”.

It has been a healthy adjustment. We’ve manged to not “helicopter” our children. We do enjoy the opportunity to occasionally visit with them. As college students, they seem to enjoy such visits because it usually comes with free food. They don’t seem to mind the occasional company either but we recognize they don’t want too much of a good thing.

Our “empty nest pause” has brought me to a sobering awareness. I acknowledge my recent awareness with this disclaimer: “I now renege on my promise that I would NEVER repeat one particular “wise guy-ism” that I heard way to much in the early years of raising our children”. I’ll attempt to explain the statement.

I refer to the time our children were in diapers. The early years of raising children hold a rigor all their own. There is no physical boredom and the need to be mentally engaged in the process holds no vacation.

As I recall this time the mantra of parents, mentors and other well-meaning “wise guys” begins to echo n my ears. “Don’t blink”. “Don’t blink”, they would say... “Don’t blink, they’ll be grown before you know it”.

Yeah...right....in the midst of all this non-boredom....blink....who has time to blink. If I blink another crisis will have time to “sneak up”.

I recall the cataclysmic incidents like the time I was called to “quickly find an industrial carpet cleaner before the gallon of paint that was just spilled has time to dry and stain”. I weep at the thoughts of the countless times that potty-training children can find bizarre places to create new potty-training facilities, especially sleepy potty-training children.

When children are small there is no doubt the days are long. Day after day there is an ever present need and call for attention. Yes, there are days of respite and the occasional break. Even then the thought of the parent seems to remain on the child.

That brings me back to my renege. I have said and will say again....”Don’t blink, don’t blink, they’ll be grown before you know it”. I say this now even at the risk of “causing an increase of pressure” in a young parent.

I do so because of a statement I heard that must be added to this mantra. The statement I now add says “always remember, when it comes to raising children....the days are long....but the years are so very short”.